I've had lots of posts titled "Big News" or "Exciting News," but this is the biggest news yet. I told you guys a while ago that I got off birth control after very prayerful consideration. It was very scary and emotional. I thought to myself "I wish I would just get pregnant on accident, so that I wouldn't have to make this huge decision."
I knew I was ready, but I was terrified. I was sad to change our happy lives. I was sad that it wouldn't be just us anymore. I didn't want to share my love with anyone but Conrad. I've adjusted. Here's the big news.
We're officially trying.
It took me 2 years to find a pill that worked well with my body. When I finally did, my skin was clear, my periods were 3 days long and it was technically just spotting. My mood swings were really regulated and I never felt depressed or "not myself" (which is something that is common when on BC, even if you don't have depression).
So getting off the pill, I knew that certain things would become more difficult - and they did. I've had consistent breakouts (not bad acne, but zits, and I haven't really dealt with them for 2 years). My first period off the pill was 10 days late. If that doesn't scare a girl half to death, I don't know what will. When it finally came, it was like a torrential downpour. I ruined all my underwear. I was hungrier and moodier. And to top it all off, I was afraid of the idea that these things meant I might get pregnant soon.
My body has finally adjusted to being off those hormones, and to the idea of pregnancy. I'm less afraid. We're even getting more excited. I went out and bought an ovulation kit and some pregnancy tests. I'd recommend that if you're trying to get pregnant, these are things you want available. You don't want to be stuck without a pregnancy test when you really want to take one.
I took one of the ovulation tests. It looks just like a pregnancy test. You pee on it, and it gives you a positive or negative answer - yes, you're ovulating, or no, you're not. It said no. I felt sad.
I felt sad?!
Have you ever experienced these roller-coaster emotions during your "fertility attempts?" If so, please share your advice!