I feel really silly posting this. I know that whatever I'm feeling has already been felt before, probably by every single woman who's ever been pregnant. But I want to voice what's happening in my heart because I've never felt this, and I want to not only seek your advice, but let other women know that they are not alone.
Before I got pregnant, I was a very emotional person. Not it a "chemically imbalanced" way, but in an "easily provoked, heightened emotions, both good and bad" kind of way.
Since I got pregnant, my emotions were actually more regulated. I was calmer and more easy-going, and up until now only cried about three times in 4.5 months.
Today, however, I've got the blues. Everything frustrates me. Which is made even more frustrating from the fact that I haven't had to deal with this kind of mood in almost five months, and am a little out of practice. I've been away from my wonderful husband for a week (except for Thursday, when we spent a couple hours seeing our kiddo). I've been sleeping alone, and while I'm physically more comfortable when I have the bed to myself, I don't feel happy when half my heart is two hours away in San Diego.
I've spent the whole time with my brother, who is 16 and very awkward. While he was at school, I spent a couple days with my Nana, who is the sweetest, most giving, loving person, but who is almost 80 and can sometimes be forgetful or redundant. Adding to my blues is the fact that spending time with these two people, who I love very dearly, is actually really draining for me. My patience wears thin, and I get angry at myself for this.
I'm also almost completely out of money, which is stressful for everyone at the end of the month, not just pregnant girls.
All of these things led to my first real hormone-driven meltdown. I cried to my beloved on the phone, just venting and leaking from my face. He comforted me and felt sad with me, and told me he was so proud of me for how I was handling everything.
Now, while I know that I may get more and more sensitive and emotional as the pregnancy progresses, and I know the provokers that cause me stress, I want to extend the question to you readers:
How do you deal with pregnancy meltdowns? What is the worst pregnancy meltdown you've ever had?
Connect with me : blog // bloglovin // facebook // twitter // instagram